Enemies... Friends

Lovers ... Friends

[you should] feel what i feel

i know you do. & thats why im glad we're here right now. we're glad.
me = you

meow mix - i want one.

no, seriously.
i want one. i need one. i HAVE to have one.

a dieing breed... the 'homme chaud'

In Toronto, as you may have noticed, there is a serious lack of what I call... Hot Mens.
So, when one of these becomes single again pandamonium strikes amongst the female populous. i find it funny, mainly because i view good looking guys like amazing pieces of art. Really really great to look at, they should definately be appreciated. But are they really worth the high cost? Additional security & insurance? usually, no.

but then again, I have always had a thing for Dali.

[my childhood] : [my life]

"You have to suffer to be beautiful. Obviously."
-Hellen James
(1916-2004)


*happy birthday Nanny. i love you. always. forever. eternal.

Underneath it All...

All i wanted was a simple thing
a simple kind of life...


The band No Doubt (ie. Not Gwen Stefani solo) resonates with me, or more so the person I was 5 years ago - & possibly still am. It makes me think back ... we've done this before [see: blog entitled 'simple kind of life']... what if things had been different. What if I made different choices. Bought rings, made promises in front of the bible, etc. etc.

if we met tomorrow for the very first time
would it start all over again would i try to make you mine?
I love my life. But there are certain things & certain people from long ago that I miss as well.

i always thought id be mom
sometimes i wish for a mistake
the longer that i wait the more selfish that i get
you seem like youd be a good dad
These people, these places - will never come back. but I will also never forget them or the option I once had, the option many of us have had & turned down. I guess thats why we've all ended up here.
HERE.

now all the simple things are simply too complicated for my life
now i guess im faithful to my freedom...
a selfish kind of life.



stuck? un-stuck?

...

BAN the Plastic Bag [!!!]

Alright, so...
I know I normally write on here about myself & nothing but myself (so help me God).
BUT there is a cause Im trying to support right now:

Banning the Plastic Bag in Toronto
I know the odds of this happening across the board are pretty much Zer0, but I'd at least like to get some stores involved & get people to start thinking about their consumption.

There are a few clients that Im going to be working with that I know would be interested in some cross-promotion as well... & where there's cross promotion there is money & publicity [&parties]

The problem is, as of right now, there is no official organizations trying to do this in Toronto right now & I by no means have the time to launch a not-for-profit on this capacity. I am however willing to help.

If you or anyone you know is interested in this cause & has some spare time tell them to contact me asap. If you dont know my number you can reach me by commenting on this note.

fyi. Just because this is a NFP organization doesnt mean free work, this person will make some money but it will also be hard work (with me!). Tasks would include some of the following:

Helping write a proposal to get Government grants
Sourcing & working with a graphic designer on the logo & website
Tracking signatures on the petition
Sourcing the cheapest organic bag supplier
Garnering sponsorships (major corporations, designers, media, etc.)
Acting as the official spokesperson for media interviews & events
Working with City Councillors

Let me know if this is something you'd like to get involved in & please pass around my plea as well.

Thanks sooo much guys!

ps. I think we should call the organization Terminating Bagging.
for short: T-BAGGING!
OH SNAP! im brilliant!... ok, maybe not.

pps. there is also a facebook group started by another girl im now working with.
You can find this here: http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=2377287734

L'OREAL (cough, Toronto, cough) Fashion Week

Spring 2008 Collections
October 22-27, 2007

hmm, yes... how kind of them to invite me.

*this picture is in no way related to fashion week. its tre chic. fashion week? maybe no.
...we'll have to wait & see.

My Little Pony. too sexy?

if only you all knew how much I LIVE for My Little Pony music videos...
i really do. That show was my basically my LIFE as a child, that & Madonna ... Obviousleh.

xo.

14 American Apparel Models Freed In Daring Midnight Raid (!!!)

LOS ANGELES— Acting on information gathered from billboards, alternative weeklies, and Internet banner ads, an FBI strike team liberated 14 dazed, sallow, and undernourished American Apparel models in a raid on the controversial organization's downtown Los Angeles compound early Monday.

"There were girls lying everywhere—draped over furniture, sprawled spread-eagled in the corner, and huddled close like animals," FBI Special Agent Curtis Froman, who oversaw the raid, said at a press conference. "Many of them had been given nothing more than a pair of tube socks or men's briefs to wear."

Froman said it took agents nearly 20 minutes to cut through the holding-cell padlocks, only to find the ambiguously ethnic-looking captives living in "unspeakable conditions."

"They just stared up at us with blank expressions of utter confusion," Froman added. "I don't think they'd seen the sun in weeks."

Nine American Apparel security enforcers were also killed during the raid.

The models, who range in age from 18 to 22 but appear to be 12 to 14, were taken to an emergency safehouse where they were given food, clothing, and access to soap. Officials said they were conducting tests to determine whether the girls were subjected to brainwashing during their captivity.



"I thought it would never end," said Fiara, a Brazilian-Finnish brunette who was held in an empty white room for weeks in nothing but Lycra tights and a halter top. "I can't believe how good it feels to wear something that buttons again."

After freeing the captives, many of whom appeared drugged, agents seized thousands of amateur Polaroids and several dozen pairs of oversized sunglasses whose purpose remains unclear, FBI reports said.

"We may never know the full extent of what went on in there," Special Agent Hugh Conroy said. "We do know they were held against their will in an airless, windowless basement under harsh fluorescent lights, forced to sign liability waivers, and posed in contorted positions on bare cement floors. "The humiliating combinations of flimsy unitards, leg warmers, and '70s-inspired tank tops they were forced to wear clearly show a deranged mind at work. Those poor, poor girls."

Several models said they were initially drawn in by American Apparel's progressive environmental policies, sweatshop-free manufacturing, and youthful corporate identity. But their dreams of success were soon shattered.

"Before I knew it, I was squatting on the floor in this humid room with a camera pointed at my crotch," said model Gabrielle, whose haunting image is shown on the newspaper below.



Law enforcement agencies have long suspected that the company's much-vaunted vertically integrated structure deliberately hid the unpleasant realities of this international model-exploitation ring. Despite their ongoing investigations, agents present during the raid were "completely unprepared" for the level of degradation they discovered inside the American Apparel facility.

"I'll never forget those hollow, emotionless eyes," Special Agent Jane Cosgrove said. "I don't care how many stock options they were given—nothing is worth what those girls went through."

Still at large, FBI sources say, is the models' alleged captor, a shadowy, unkempt, elaborately facial-haired figure in his late 30s or early 40s known only as "the Creepy Man."

fyi.

oh yeah i got my laptop back...
that was weird.

someone returned it or something... 3 weeks later.

im not complaining.
confused? maybe.

Complaining? no.

working on a $400 K-Mart pc for the last two weeks has f*cking BLOWN.

Plan B

i dont take birth control, its a horrifying pill & if you take it you should probably just kill yourself NOW.

The point is/was... this blog title is not a referance to birth control.


I've decided to switch gears & take on Plan B, the logical plan... the plan most take.
This plan involves working on myself, my own projects & my own career. Fancy that!
Because I mean really, other people will always disappoint you... its only a matter of time.

& as one of the greatest minds of our time once said, Beyonce (of course)... "Me, Myself & I"

She's so clever, so original, so narcissistic...
gotta love her

i know this 40yr old hag...

a. says:
do you think they have ever slept together?
i feel like they have & she drugged him

A - to rehab but i say no no no says:
she has most likely drug raped him

a. says:
hahah

A - to rehab but i say no no no says:
like 95 percent

A - to rehab but i say no no no says:
because she told me:

A - to rehab but i say no no no says:
he has a big xxxx

A - to rehab but i say no no no says:
and she saw it...

A - to rehab but i say no no no says:
apparently

A - to rehab but i say no no no says:
but then again, she's seen maybe even the popes

A - to rehab but i say no no no says:
because she's so xxxx hungry

A - to rehab but i say no no no says:
apparently

one sunday afternoon...

"I'm over the debauchery.
It's actually too crazy."

-Amanda
(Sunday 1:23pm, LaPalette)



*an excerpt from the YBSP chronicles.

computer? negative. fone? negative. sanity? negative.

im going on a little trip. detox. de-stress. & remove myself from debauche.
Ive busted my ass, kissed ass & fallen on my ass for the last 8 weeks & need a bit of time off now. In order to survive, im going to have to make a couple changes... its for the better! Ive been a little girl lost all summer, but now Im happy, recouping & set to focus on things... like red ballons & the return of the Mau.

Until next time kiddies!

xo
au.

ps. theres mice in my house... i think i have to move.