destination: LA LA Land...

escape.escape.escape.escape.escape.escape.escape.escape.es

breathe...

tears

i haven't cried in sobriety in a really long time.
i cry often, these days.
but just now, sober, it hurts so much more.

you will never be my hero.

its been hard for me to understand that & you to admit that. neither has happened yet.
but now my friend, now i am at the brink...



you will never be my hero & you will never mean as much to me as them.

you
break
i
broke

they cleaned up the mess.


[you were not born to run]

jaded

"you've got your mama's style but your yesterdays child to me.
you think that's where its at - but is that where it supposed to be?
... you're so jaded. but i'm the one that jaded you."

-steven tyler

♥ x infinity

there is so much love to be had in the world.
you just have to look for it.

(♥)

my friend just told me she's falling

& for the first time in 4 days...
i really truely smiled.



"but i get butterflies which is really incredible... cause i thought all my butterflies were dead and lying in a pile somewhere"


♥
a.

in t e g r i t y?

it sells for so little - but its all we have left.

...

HA HA HA (almost hysterical laughter/pain)

ps. for the record - this is not about darren. obviously.

about a girl

"well i dont know... i guess she wasn't getting the attention she wanted - and we know what happens then..."
-zds

love stains.

& red wine stains.

today i woke up - in someone else's bed. floated to the mirror. i tried to scrub my lips.
already swollen, what I thought was blood was really red wine.

chills. chilled.

my lips are stained & i cannot get it off.
my clothes are stained & i cannot get it off.

my mind is stained. my heart is stained.
i cannot get it off.



& plato lies to me again...





"Nothing more excellent or valuable than wine
was ever granted by the Gods to man."
Plato

m0ney = happine$$? negative.

unless you use your money to buy me this!!

im kidding, shut up!
but just so you know... its the Marc Jacobs 'Stam' bag in turquoise python. It's designed after Canadian supermodel Jessica Stam - which practically almost makes it Canadian in itself. See - I never fully sell out!

thanks Santa!

xo.

ps. Its a couple seasons old now - which makes it cheap(er)
pps. I still want the piano... & pony...

goodbye :: ♥ :: hello

its
what:
you lose

along the way

to
lose

yourself.

nothing hurts worse than friends disappointing you

fuck.

i love smoking...
however, they've just found something in a friend's lung
& ive recently met a guy who's inspiring me to be: even more perfect.

im upset my friends, i think the smoking has gotta go...
gambling with your health at the ripe old age of 21 is starting to feel a little bit passé.

wish me luck.

its that time of the year...

dec 16th I 66@augusta I 6pm
bring my gift...